So once again it is time again to layout a few simple goals and for the most part not bother with any of them. Well F that! I did fairly well last year and this year I will try and do as well.
1, Focus more on work at work. I know this one is super ironic as I start out every morning at work with my blog post and plan to keep doing so but a lot more time then I would like, I feel my mind wonder to this gear list or this build. And from those thoughts to lets just take a peak at the forums and then I spiral out of control. Ending up only getting 4-5 hours of work done in my 8-hour day. I can do better then that.
2, Keep reading but add in more learning materials, thinking one “thing” a month. One of the things I feel hampers me from ever leaving this dead end job is I spend my time working (mostly with old tools/teck), playing DDo or generally enjoying my free time. I need to get at least get a better idea of what is out there, even if that is all I learn….
3, leading again. Finally back to a real DDo goal. For a long time now I have used the early failures of the F2P groups as my excuse not to lead groups any more. And to be fair that time really left a nasty taste in my mouth. But I have been in the leadership role more and more lately be it leading the DG/HoDW team ups or even a raid or two. And while I don’t really like it, there are things that need to be done. At least on Sarlona some raids have completely dropped off the raidar (see what I did threre? ☺).
4, Be more grateful when the loot gods favor anyone, something I think a lot of people could work on. I like most people want things. Oh I love things. So when someone else gets things I get a little jealous and want them to give me their things. Sure I can be glad for friends and channel people but often I just want MORE STUFF for myself so even if I do feel happy for people I also have that hit of jealously. And I don’t think I can cut the jealously but I can try and be happier for others.
5, Be more forgiving in game. I am often quick to anger and long to cool down, at myself or others. A few quick examples (who doesn’t like a few short stories?):
Last weekend I burned a few bypasses with Tobril on Abbott runs, mostly to get his last few in for a 20th list before he TRs his FvS. The runs were mostly good but I don’t think we won goggles on the first try even though we were in the same room talking and planning out the path. So the other day when I saw what looked like a few good people leading one I was unsure if I wanted to give it a try. But I did and while it was filling a person (a reader here) sent me a tell and we talked back and forth. It so happens that we ended up in Ice. But almost at the end this person shot the island a little too far and I didn’t make it. Causing us to wipe ice, causing us to have to re-beat down. We happened to be the only room that failed. Had my partner and I not been joking and having a good time I would have been very pissed. Which was not needed and would not have been helpful. Instead we joked about it and it so happened that I got my Litany! So totally worth it!
One more, last afternoon I lead a CitW raid. Just on normal as I am still getting my bearings in the quest and I was super upfront as to my lack on knowledge of the raid, but I had a basic plan and was willing to take any input if anyone had any. And way the raid went really well. I even had a Twilight drop for me. With out really thinking about it I kicked it over to one of the Brits who had said he was looking for one when we started first learning the raid, THE 7 OF US. And he happily looted said item and life was good. Well as the group disbanded one guy asks if any named loot dropped? I say yeah a Twilight dropped. Then he asks, who looted it. I said the Brit’s alt name looted it expecting that to be it. And he points out that it is not in the loot list. I take a look as the wife and I were also talking about the stick and I ended up pulling up the wiki page on it for us to look at because it was not in the list. Then he says “Didn’t if fall in your name, Sam? Its cool if you kicked it to a guildie or something.” And I said yes it did and I passed it really with out thinking. And he goes Oh one of those groups; at least it was a completion…. And I got pissed. Not a sec ago he wanted to be sure it got looted or seeing if we got skunked and then it became he wanted my loot. I know color me ironic, but I don’t think I deserve anyone’s loot even if I want it… His little comment pissed me off had the Brits also not been logging off just then as it was getting on for them it would have made a real unfun play time for us for the next couple hours. Instead I took a break to calm down, thinking about it now I am a little pissed. See why I need to learn to let this kind of thing go? In hindsight maybe I should have rolled it off but like I said it was mostly with out thought and the Brits and I have been coming up together in this content even short manning the raid a time or two depending on wither you count tomorrows post as a win or not..
Anyway time to go. Hope you have a few resolutions on tap for the New Year and I hope you all have a good one.