So for the first time since Friday I slept for more then 3-4 hours. I don’t remember dreaming about working, catching myself dreaming about working and then wakening up because I don’t need to me working in my sleep anymore. And yet some how i am still exhausted… Man this is just weird. So long in my go to work, come home, die repeat rut; things are strange not doing that.

Okay read today’s chapter, good stuff. Time to get sappy with 6 or so questions and answers.

2.1, Respond to “All progress requires change, but not all change is progress.”

Sounds fairly right. It would be hard to move forward if you are always standing still, but it is also hard to move forward if you are doing the chicken dance.

2.2, Describe your career path in one statement.
For some reason i keep wanting to make this one word replies, so i am going to just list those thoughts: Halted, Varied, Unforeseen.

I am not sure what that means? Am i still in a morning stage?

2.3, How has company change affected you? How did i feel about said change?
We hired Jordan, a fellow php dev, and he was a great help. I felt a lot of relief that there wasn’t as much on my shoulders alone. But at the same time i felt that there was a challenge to keep up with the new guy bringing new tools and new ideas. I think he helped bust me out of my work rut and motivated me to work beyond my go to tool set.

2.4, Have i had any failure in my career? What did said failure lead to?

I have to say i feel like this is a fail right now. In the words of a friend of a friend “the company got me, i didn’t get the company” meaning i was asked to leave not left them wanting more. I knew that my boss was looking for the right excuse or the last one to push things over the top. I could have/should have beaten him to the punch. Thing is i am super loyal to places i have worked. My favorite fast food is still from the place i worked in high school, my favorite radio station is the one i worked at when i was going to college. Had i not needed to move on with my life, school/marriage/financial responsibilities i would be happy working at those places today. Same with GP, sure there where things i didn’t like at all those places but not enough to make me want to leave.

2.5, What were my childhood goals/ambitions? Which ones have i achieved?

I wanted to be a pilot so bad. When i had the chance i went to flight school and learned i loved to fly but hated the requirements and cost to becoming a pilot for hire. I didn’t want to be a flight instructor (which is more or less the only way to get the hours to even thing about being a pro-pilot). I remember wanting to be a oceanographer. lolz! But think that was mostly a Kansas boy wanting to be away from fields and cattle. Other then that all i remember was wanting to be away from home at all costs.

2.5, Name 2 or 3 people that have seemed to accomplished their dreams? What do i know about their accomplishments?

This one is kind of easy. People like Jerry, Tolero and Glin aka Eric seem to have found the magic. They are “living the dream” and making fantasy come to life. I know they all have had different hardships. Think i said on the live from GenCon Cocktail Hour that Glin was the most interesting person i have ever known (think he told me he was turned down for basically his current job the year before he got it). And Jerry’s struggles are simi-well known, but if you don’t know he also worked in radio aka the dying media… And yet they kept at it because that is where they wanted to be.

2.6 What do you think retirement will be like?

Can i just laugh and call this one done? No? I don’t know. Want i want right now more then anything is to sell everything get an RV and take off do what i need to as i need to when it becomes time to fill the tank or start that little farm someplace where it is fairly nice year round and can live mostly off grid. I would still need internet access, i am not a stone statue… But do i really think it will be like? I just don’t know. Maybe that commune will happen?

 

Okay all i want to skim at tomorrows reading, check on the chickens and greenhouse, maybe do some cooking and i want to do a ddo related update.

 

Hope to see you all real soon,

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