Sometime in the wee hours of the morning my sleeping brain decided to get back to the task at hand of writing a cover letter for one of the Turbine positions i plan to apply. When it jumped forward to the interview process where i was trying to explain why i was let go. That thought is better then coffee or a million pounds of crack if you don’t ever want to sleep again.  I spent the rest of the night calming myself down, clearing my mind of the bull shit then going back to sleep where my brain would shoot right back to that same problem once again shaking me awake.

Repeat until 6:30 where it is time to start making progress on the day. Grumble, Frumble, shit fuck balls motherfucker dog kicker…. I might be in a bit of a foul mood. Worse of all i still don’t think i have an answer to the problem and i know that i am too brain dead to make a dent now.

 

Homework?

Today’s chapter was about looking at doing something on my own vs looking for another job.

11.1, Do i know anyone that was fired then started their own business, successfully?

I don’t know. I can’t think of anyone. I know a few people that could have but i can’t think of anyone that did. Do any of you fit the bill?

11.2, What skills do i have that could be the basis for a creative business?

Well i think i have covered the whole writer/storyteller idea. I have been working on ideas, some are good and others are less then good. I could also do that podcasting thing, but i would be one of the totally unknown podcasters trying to make a living poding. Very unlikely to happen.

11.3, Do i have any ideas that would fall into the “peacemakers, storytellers or healers” category?

Not sure what this is asking. I know that he means like mediation/health businesses when he says peacemakers/healers category. I don’t think i really have an idea there…

11.4, Do i have an SWISS income idea?

SWISS means Sales While I Sleep Soundly, aka he wants to know if there is something i could do then generate cash flow while i am doing something else. He talks about digital book sales. Sound familiar?

11.5, Do i give myself time to “sit of ideas”?

By this he means take time to let your imagination run wild. I want to say fairly often, i mean you all have seen my writing it is mostly about being in my head. 🙂

11.6, “Take delight in the Lord, and He will give you your heart’s desires”. How does this apply to being content in a job you hate?

Think the point is you can’t be content in something you hate and delight in the Lord. But if you do something you love then good things will happen for you. This is a lot like a self fulfilling prophecy.

11.7, How does my culture/environment/expertise limit my being able to see new opportunities?

Right now i am kind wallowing in the “no on loves me and i don’t love no body” mind set. That is blocking out a lot of my field of view. But my father worked himself to the bone for 20+ years the plant he worked at for so many years shut down and he has struggled ever since. Think he is now happily unemployed, knowing him he is running a “gun store” out of the house. That was always his dream, by the way. Opening his own brick and mortar shop… I really need to get my shit together and get on at Turbine and or knock out a few of these book ideas.

 

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